Hallucination: #2 Aztec Temples

MAD NESS - well worth it

In 2010 Rebecca and I were in Las Posas in Xilitla, Mexico---wildness to be had there for anyone who appreciates obsessive compulsive art. OVER THE TOP insane. we spent a week or so here. If the weather had been better we would have spent more time in the park space more often. Fact is as we walk in the park we each take two hits of acid. Now this was our first time to take two hits of this acid. Pushing our limits together. Well we didnt plan entirely to well and found ourselves with out water no headlamp and crawling on the ground searching for the way out ...scaling the fence to escape the surrealistic madness that is Las Posas--while tripping our faces off trying to determine the difference between the trail and the jungle- hard to explain. we were quite scared though not really knowing what we were scared of.

The hallucination happened while the sun was still up. i felt the sensations peaking on the drug. So I settled down to stare off into the waterfall that i fond myself in front of. the waterfall was coming down the hillside through the jungle ending about 6 feet above the water(at my feet) before it spilled into the water. there was a plant that was twitching back and forth from the flowing action of the water. the Sun was behind the water fall pointing towards me through the jungle tree tops. there was a hill on either side of waterfall.

i think this is the actual waterfall- i didnt take photos.

I was sitting staring with a soft gaze after a deep breath to hold. Then world started to shift. The hills on either side of the waterfall transformed to Aztec buildings or temples.  As the temples came into more defined shape the stream passing though it changed shape as well. The temples created a new well defined pathway for the stream to pass through. Then at the end of the stream where the water fell a new shape was created allowing the water to flow up and out in a fountain type display.

What i interpreted from this was the temples were the male energy and the water and plants were the female energy. I got obsessed with trying to figure out which came first the temples or the stream when transforming. Also I came to the realization that if I as Gregory Jackson Haley just do what ever it is I want to do then the forces around me will alter and form something more beautiful than before. Allowing me to exsist as I need and desire to be.

Sure there was a better way to say this just glad to get it down. been wanting to write it down for some time.

Hallucinations: #1 Leaves were looking at me

I had tried mushrooms a couple times before though apparently not as much as this time. I am guessing 3grams. I was at the midwest burn Interfuse 2008.  I was handed some mushrooms from a good friend about 6pm. I enjoyed the conversations around me and laughed quite a bit. at one point i felt the need to pee so I went over to the edge of the campsite to pee in the forrest. this is where i was introduced to stillness and its effect on psychedelics. As i stood there looking off into the soft distance, I noticed the leaves were looking at me. then I noticed ALL the leaves were looking at me. I was still peeing and for some reason still with my soft gaze in tact no sudden movements or a desire to look around. I was enjoying the vision i was seeing. I can not say there were eyes on the leaves though i knew they were looking at me.

It was the leaves not the trunk though Google failed me.

watching me.
noticing me.
aware of me.

I saw it more as a tunnel that I interpreted later as a tree.

I was not scared. in an instant there was a download of information being sent to me through the connection established with the leaves. I went up a tree into the branches into the trunk then back into its history. I saw the connectedness of all the trees. stemming off each other --or rather reconnecting with each other as i went back in time. I saw the evolution of the plant and what it came from. I saw what its relative came from and so on. I remember a flash backward through history even faster to the point of spores. Then how the spores came to the planet Earth to spread. The spores had come through empty space and landed on Earth from far away. The spores had traveled in all directions and was present on every planet.

The awareness of the leaves were looking grew into the awareness that everything was looking at me and aware of me and everything i was doing.

I saw everything as connected in a tree like structure.

Spin the Wheel Tell a Story

version 2 at Apogaea 2013

I was at Apogaea in Bailey,Colorado in June of 2012. I walked by a guy on a microphone at The Story Portal that was telling a very intimate story about his first sexual experience to about twenty people sitting and standing. I was mesmerized. He went into great detail as to how he felt and how he experienced the moment. he stepped down from the mic. 

It was an open invitation to walk up and spin the wheel and tell a story. I stepped up and told several stories that i had never told anyone. I LOVED IT! i wish all the people i knew had heard those stories. most of all i was happy to tell them. No clue if the people in the audience were listening (though there were ooo , ahhs, claps every so often).  The ideas on the wheel were something like.  My First time
I almost died when
My favorite part about life
One time at this burn
It was a dark and stormy night


I went back to Dallas and decided to make my own on mason board with a spinner. I put some paper over the board so it could be written on and be seen easier. At the next burn, FreezerBurn, I took it out and asked people for some conversation starters. I filled in the blanks on the wheel and so it began. I sat up two nights in a row till the wee hours hosting the event around a fire. I think the fire was an essential element to creating a captured audience to listen in on moments to inspire them to share moments.

I feel we are all wanting deeper connections with all those we include in our lives. It seems  our lives have moved away from being able to create those connections and gotten out of the habit to do so.  I like the idea of creating a Smart Phone app that allows for this kind of story telling moment to occur anywhere. while a conversation can serve as a get to know you kind of experience having an external device direct the experience is somehow disarming enough to allow intimacy very quickly.

Grow food inside stomachs

VERY happy at this moment i am not a professional and have no reputation to uphold or need to have a well thought out idea ;-) - this is more of a scratch pad day --as you peer over my shoulder.

Been wanting to post this for some time. The combination of intention, ear buds w/ music ( and no words or at least ones I cant understand) and the magic of Adderall allows the reduction of the static in the nogg'n.... must use sparingly (that/this stuff is super addictive). My writing seems to be a lot more erratic and chaotic -- practice!(after writing a little I realize how out of practice i am)sd

A population will grow to the size of its food supply. (sorry cant find a reference for this... grrr not that it really matters since this is NOT SCIENCE)

I feel there are technological advances in food that have yet to occur. I feel humans are excellent at creating/innovating solutions to problems though it always requires an extreme to motivate that change. While I claim no ownership of this or any idea I want to state that this a crazy in the way we think of food and social interaction.   to the point.

I think we should grow food inside our stomachs

Simple as that. The best solution for understanding this is a symbiotic relationship with another organism that dwells within us (endosymbionts) and we provide it with sugar, water salt...  Certainly we have a symbiotic relationship with the already present bacteria in our bodies. Whoes to say the food chain doesn't just get longer inside of us.

made me laugh

I used to think I liked food.
I like flavors, smells, tastes, textures, memories associated and VERY MUCH the social interaction that comes from the buying/eating/sharing/preparing/the build up/wind down of the eating moment. So much interaction comes from food. I even like/love washing dishes(my favorite job I ever had was washing dishes). So I am desiring more of that/those and less of the actual swallowing and digestion aspects of eating. 

Since we would be getting all of our nutrition from the food grown in our stomachs (that we feed?) many changes would occur.  Transportation of food from around the world  of bulky perishable foods would not be needed. The eatting expereince would change, and i like to think, to be more of experience rather than efficiency. Which i know is a dicotomy since it already is an experience and does not need to be more efficient. Agricuture was invented around 10,000 years ago and we still have yet to create an eating habit to standardize. Funny how i dislike being told what to do though i think diet and exercise should be taught to children.   A lot can be attributed to the fact there is constant discovery and testing on animals across the globe. Who knows maybe cancer will be cured by some deravation of high fructose corn syrup. Cancer may be another something that we just learn to coexist with as is separates from us to become its own entity-- sounds like another post hmm- i digress.

Transportation
of course in my world the resources used to transport the large quantities of food around the world would be greatly reduced and appropriated - most likely used to create new space age ways of keeping cocks hard and humans sexually active/interested.

Eating Experience
I envision the eating experience to be more like a plate with thimbles of spices, sauces and textures. Feeding yourself or others in a group to share in the emotions experienced during the interaction.  Being able to describe the feelings occurring with the flavor/smell texture is more the direction i see going rather than filling ourselves with what is in front of us out of it being the cheapest to fill us.

not the best of flavors in this version 1.

possibly the store bought version

Expansion
seeing the populations of the world expanding since the dominant species is satiated by having less. That desire expanding in other areas--which I am very interested in knowing more about.

Enslavement
conspiracy theory #1:
All of the endosymbionts in each of us will unite with telepathy and decide to rebel against us the master sugar/water providers. They will direct us to do their will. Creating a whole new world. ( love how ideas just spring up and onto the page)



(will have LOTS more time on our hands.  This is very upsetting to many I have seen with many. Idle hands make people nervous - I have feared it at times. Wondering what I would do with my life after the success or failure of The Ball of Light. More happens is all. Seek your love. Many seem to feel we are not more proactive/productive with our time as it is will all the time savers. I see it as different we are experimenting with a variety of devices across an entire population and will see what we appreciate each for what it does best. Picking and choosing along the way and changing as the situations calls for it.  -- personally getting rid of my house,TV, other appliances choosing only my cell phone laptop and car as my ways of interacting has changed my life in ways I could only appreciate months after having done it.  )

Yes there are plenty of pitfalls though that is what SCIENCE and eager problem solvers are here for.
I seem to be a problem maker in this instance ;-)

enough...for now

Drama X

I have been in need of writing down the process of Drama X for some time.
Now seems to be that time.

I was driving back from Transformus (a Burn located in Asheville,North Carolina- gorgeous) with +boar head (Boarhead) & +Sam Ocean (Sam) in 2008. It was POURING down rain and it was raining so hard the old windshield blades could not keep up and we ere driving about 30 on the interstate in a large truck. I suggested we should pull over and i'll spring for some new blades. I decided to get some Rain-X and some blades full well knowing that the rainX would be enough though I was wanting to keep moving and well i guess I didn't want to stop again for this issue.

So
once applied, this magic substance (WELL worth buying though it probably does some nastiness to the living creatures in it) to the windshield allows for new experience in riving to occur. the rain was coming down and when before the the water was so thick vision was like looking through a water fall--Now with the Rain X I could see the road clearly. The rain beaded up and rolled right off. Before the rainX we were crawling along at 30 Miles per hour on  Interstate 40 No we are ZOOMINg along at the speed limit of i think 60 or 70--
-important aspect-
WITHOUT the windshield wipers on!

Even though i knew this would occur it was still a shocker since we had already had a helluva trip of car troubles and regular group road trip issues. Towing and and broken mirrors and sombreros( that sounds like a better title 'Broken Mirrors & Sombreros'). It was such a relief to not only not have to deal wit hte windshield wiper back anf forth I also didnt have to deal with the rain at all. The nit came to me.....

What if there was Rain X for Drama? 

First: the Graphic
And so spoke to  +Shoshannah Silverman (Sho) and she offered to help create some of the graphics for Drama-X . which should look very similar to Rain X...within a couple weeks BAM! then I added a few words and a before and after sad/smily face.


Second: the sticker
Next went to FedEx/Kinkos to get an estimate (i cant remmebr the cost maybe $100 for 50 stickers)
Third: the containers
Went to Target and bought 50  small  spray containers ....actually i remember cleaning out several of the targets around Dallas for this. Little spray bottles the kind used for ..... well spraying things. about 12 to 15 ounces.

teehee(my old Drama X boots are now with Heather) 

Fourth: The water
Intention has been filling me with passion and direction over the past 5 years and this was my first experience with discovering where intention can be influenced from and with. I was taking from the beliefs of Dr.Emoto and our ability to influence water through our words. I was expounding on his concept.  I went with +Rebecca Fetch (rebecca) to +Tom Hall(Tom)  and +Sheri Hall (Sheri)s house where SO many wonderful events have occurred over the past couple of years.

They have a pool! 

With Rebecca's help we placed the Drama X stickers on the bottles and we filled the bottles with the pool water then set them in a large enough circle for someone stand in the center of before the next event held at that house that night. There were about 60 people that showed up or so. ( i wonder if there are photos from that night?

I do so love Rebeccas smile and laugh

Fifth: the MAGIC!
At the next event at Tom and Sheri's I asked everyone who desired to stand in the middle of the circle one at a time and express some blessing/ prayer/ positive statement/ Song towards the water. I gave them a piece of paper with a primer such as 'I thank you water, I love you water'.

Sixth: The presentation
At The next Burn event Myschevia held in October of 2008 (infamously known as Mudchevia! or Pyrosythesis (thank you +Marshall Yount Marshal --for so much - you get a separate post later)) Rebecca and I went around the event and handed out all of the bottles to who ever desired them. with the idea they could spray themselves to prevent Drama from occuring to them or allow the drama they are having to go away. They also can spray others until their drams goes away or they go away with their drama. ;-)
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It has been 4 and a half years now and I have found one bottle in San Francisco with +Heather Blaikie (Alabama) which she uses currently for holding her dish washing soap :-). I found another 2! bottles with Kelly Rene Castello  in Houston one of them still had the original water in it! -- that was her first burn ever ! In fact she met me when she put my hair out when it caught on fire while spinning fire
:-). I say she met me since I was filled with adrenaline and responsible for the fire procession since i was the lead...

I would love to know where more of these bottles have found their homes and how they have been used.

Mainly I amazed how fantastic it was to collaborate on such a beautiful project.  The start of a long line of collaboration efforts to appreciate those around me and the situations that occur through those interactions.

I made a change to the graphic in hopes more could realize their abilty to replenish the rejuvenating powers within the veseel they choose.

Go forth and multiply ! 

(Also on this same road trip i expressed my desire for the Death Spiral (now Life Spiral) for my manner in which my body is handled after it dies.-- GREAT TRIP)

A Letter to my Family

A Letter to my Family:

I have desired to share the world of Burning Man with you all. My Family with a capitol F. I have gained a new appreciation of the difference between my Family and my chosen family. Many would say a chosen family are considered friends. I have grown to see that concept as a much more undefinable term.  Friends are just people we have not met yet. Our chosen family are the people we choose to find ourselves around whether they are immediately related or not.

It is not an easy leap considering our lives are ruled by our fears and lack of free time. Time being our most precious resource of which I have created a vast amount.  I have also realized that convincing and changing other people is a waste of time. Instead I prefer to live by example. While my choices are not the ones others would make I believe the end result is what all desire.  The ability to do what I want when I want. It is not perfect and I kinda like it that way.

This email is a relapse into the convincing department of my life. Here are two sources that present the concept of Burning Man that are respected by those we all know and love. TED and WNYC:radio labs (if you are not familiar with this resource please find your way her at some point. really amazing stories)

The TED explains a world collaboration project for the Temple at Burning Man. It is effigy that is burned on the last day- that day after the Man is burn (the central effigy).17 mins http://bit.ly/HSenvL

The WNYC:Radio Labs show discusses the Wagner Ring Cycle and makes comparison to the Burning Man experience. It is a longer program than most can obligate. 58Mins

The Ring and I the passion the myth the mania

While my project The Ball Of Light is not the same level as either The Temple or the Ring cycle I feel it is certainly the correct direction of community driven projects. Pulling away from the need to compete and moving towards working together toward unifying concepts not needing to be "productive". Allowing for collaboration to direct the project while staying within a guide. 

Not really sure what will come of this email. Just glad I shared it.

I have now written this and have decided to post this on my blog since I think the information is worth spreading/saving/documenting.

Love you all,

Gregory

This statement was shared with me last summer and it resonated with me in a way i feel yall can appreciate. 

Even if I am unable to be there, I fully support you and your deepest desires becoming manifest in the world.

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My old fence never looked better.

Walden 2.0

Solar Plexus, Third Chakra
My own inner source of energy is strong.
I have a purpose on this earth, and I have the ability to fulfill it.
My inner light burns brightly.

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion. - HDThoreau

I have been wanting to create this post for about two months now. Just now getting around to it- just a month after it was DUE---(and now still a month more still).
(after writing this I am seeing this should probably be a few different posts but I am know how rare it is that I actually write and it all comes out when it does)

I returned with Rebecca a year ago as of February 2, 2012. I believe this anniversary is a moment for me to step back and see what this year has created after separation from total BLISS. Upon arrival we were greeted with Snowmageddon of '11. Allowing for the ability to ease back into the world. Spending time with friends snowed in. Great moment of blissful talking.

The next week and half I was toiling over how my living situation would look like after now being a gypsy for 14 months. (as a child I moved my bed around the room about once every month). I had several options. None of the options provided the one thing I desired - having no static place of residence.  I had almost given up hope for my dream when I realized the road trips I had been in Pipi (the Prius that lets me live in her). I had been able to sustain multiple trips over the last five years with each trip being 4 weeks or longer. It dawned on me. If I can do a road trip and feel rested why can't I do a city trip and be rested.

So I went to REI and bought a Therm-a-rest Dreamtime . A PLUSH inflatable that I have -no joke- filled only once! In fact every month or so I check to make sure I am not lying to myself and just open up the valve and see if air comes out. freaking LOVE LOVE LOVE this 'mattress of the gods'. I will repeat that incase you might have  missed the importance of this. an air mattress that has been filled only once  in a year ... while IN a car in the TEXAS HEAT!
mattress of the gods. o yeah and it is uber comfy. Durable air  mattress with a memory type foam covered in protective fabric. You really won't wanna go back to any other option. I take it inside when I sleep over at other peoples houses.

The transformative powers of vibration - intention

I believe in the power of intention has a MASSIVE amount of influence on the outcome of any endeavor ( see Dr. Emoto ). Just as I believe in the stabilizing force that is Boarhead. So I went to Boarhead and had him infuse his energy in to my new temple by helping me put together my extension of the back seat. It is a piece of plywood that extends past the seat as it is folded down. Allowing for the back seat to accommodate a 6 foot tall person/entity/being. I could have easily created it myself but having had the help of a friend it now has some gifted intention. Also more recently cut out some  foam (found at Joans fabric) to fill in the side of the Dreamtime mattress to allow for a FULL back seat bed. two people can sleep without encroaching on each others space. Really quite amazing.

As for sleeping arrangements I put a piece of comfy fabric over the Dreamtime. Then I use the amazingly positively energy infused comforter originally acquired for room 909 at South Side on Lamar for the Emperors Bed( good times). It is a king size comforter that I fold up in half and it covers the whole thing almost perfectly(  about 8 inches to long. Makes for a great toe warmer when I want to get really cozy).   I get under that most nights unless it is warm and then I sleep on top. If it is cold I take my sleeping bag and create a bivy sack inside my car ( by using Irwin Quick grips that are having from my Oh-shit-bars. Then laying the sleeping bag over the head rests creates a LARGE bivy sack of warmth- if I really want to it can be warmed with my laptop  :-) especially if the sucker is on my lap.)  Or I can always turn on my car for an instant electrical heater with the defrost - greg on cold mornings -hot in 5 minutes.

 An example of colors

I had already tapered down my clothes to three shirts , 2 pants , 6 socks, (got ride of underwear awhile ago). overt the previous year traveling with Rebecca. I use travel cubes to organize the different aspects of my constant travel life.
I have one for my:

• Toiletries -  toothbrush,toothpaste,nail clippers,tweezers(I tweeze my beard since it has only a few on the sides- saves me to ever have to shave), floss 
• My shirts and pants - three shirts, 1 pair of long pants,1 pair of shorts, 1set of overalls,
• Socks - 8 pair 
• Dirty laundry( it is plastic lined to keep any smell contained- I can only tolerate a certain amount of smell - I am a princess camper)
• Toy Bag- Fire poi/flags/external flash

Another thing I really enjoy is my hobby body painting travels so very well. I fit them all right behind the passenger seat. Yes!
Now to learn all of the more portable hobbies/passions !!

Great for tea or dehydrated food

Food
Is everywhere you go.I actually have extra dried backpacking foodI have not touched in months. I have about 10 days of dehydrated food with a Jet Boil behind the drivers seat. I only seem to ever use those when I am at a burn or camping out. Food is everywhere all the time overwise. I do need to go through the other food stores I originally put in the cupboard(the space be hind the driver seat). Just don't need anywhere near as much as stuff as i originally thought. (update after having gone through the stuff i took out 70 percent of it and replaced it with Nice teas graciously donated by Gary Zimneys while working on The Ball of Light.  I put them in a nice wooden box and take them out when at a place where  people want to talk( since i can boil water on site anywhere--teehee).

Bathrooms
Are everywhere you go. I do make sure I go to the restroom before I leave the place I am last before going to bed. I also do not drink alcohol after about 6pm. Otherwise I would have to either get up in the night to pee or I would not sleep well... and I like my sleep.

Intention on my recharge space
My foray into intention has revealed that I have not spent much effort on putting positive energy in my recharge space in the past. I have now placed the sacred items in my life not only inside my mobile temple but under my bed. I am getting into the habit of actually taking these items out during the positive energy infusing moments. Paint (body paint) is the first place I have noticed my desire to have my temple present. I would like to devise a more slick way of getting my temple in and out from under my bed. It takes about a minute right now and I would prefer about a quarter of that time. The items will adapt over time the way I see it.
The main elements are:

• A male and female metal figurine my sister Kimberly gave me when she made her first trip over to Thailand to start expanding her company GlobeAware there. The company I am happy to say I helped to create and is changing the world through cross cultural sharing.
• a singing bowl I purchased from a an adventure with Rebecca in Crestone Colorado upon a suggestion from my real-estate agent. I have been told it is a heart chakra tone. I could see it represent any and all.
• a glass paper weight in the shape of the world which I received from my grandmother upon her death
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• wooden instrument I made while creating my first fine wood working project. proving to me that I had the talent just not the patience of focus to do anything.
• a chinese sugar like bowl that I like to think of as a incense burner - I just like this one
• a few other memoried items 
• I am more aware of the smells in Pipi. I have a container that was provided about five years ago from Claire (who also introduced me to body paint) that contains a scent that I keep in the glove box to help provide a more intentional space. 

MAN I
 Love ambigrams

Privacy
Gotta have it. I am still trying to determine how much. At this point privacy means to me to be able to rest without being disturbed from my sleep ( which now I can do anywhere). A place where I can feel secure and private to recharge in my slumber.  I put a sunshade in the front window - recently I have covered the shiny metal with black fabric (this will change over time). For curtains I use two pieces of fabric that pinches in the hatchback (with the creative use of a fabric glue and two plastic pencils) And extend that fabric to the front and pinch the fabric in the visors. This allows for no extra parts for sleeping other than the fabric and sunshade. no extra securing items needed( me like!).  With this set up I am pretty private many would say that the hatchback is still visible but if I park near a street light at all it beats out any light that will come from my laptop. NOW if I want to have absolute  privacy where no one will know if someone is inside or see any lights at all and have the interior lights on - I simply use the same Quick grips to holdup the comforter up and that blocks the hatchback window. Actually quite fantastic how much the car blends in with no inkling there is someone living in the car. I can turn on the interior lights and you would not know it from the outside.

SO...where do you park? 
That is the number one question people ask.
Anywhere
No one pays attention to a car parked there for one night.
I do prefer to park sometimes near someone house that has an internet connection. This allows for a leisurely wakeup/work time.  I enjoy looking at my calendar at night and seeing what is on the agenda for tomorrow morning and driving close to there and parking. I can get up later if I desire ( I don't sleep in past 7am anymore and go to bed about 12 at the latest). I feel it has increased my productivity.


How do you shower?

• for the past year I have had a Bikram Yoga membership ( (wow another post -short version-) allowed me to realize self-discipline and patience with taking care of myself through diet,rest ,exercise. If practice twice a week I stay the same physical shape if I practice three times a week I improve). The two main downsides of using a yoga studio for my shower is I HAVE to work out in order to take a shower. That can eat up some time. So I got better at time management. I recently have switched to 24 Hours Fitness and am taking what I learned in the last year of yoga to practice on my own. I know it will take a bit to get the motivation to have the same level of productivity i can get a from a group led class. I feel i have it within me to realize the further benefits of paying attention to my needs and wants on my own - rather than being instructed to do so.  The first step has been to have a Bikram audio playing on my iPhone. I have done this a three times now and I am liking the results. I can see how this will easily expand my practice. 
• When not able to get to yoga practice in the time allotted I resort to taking a shower at the place i am at ...where ever that maybe. I usually take in my towel (microfiber travel towel--dries quick) but it IS nice when get to feel the towels of the house and the different soaps and smells of another home. It is a reminder of the things I miss from having a static home. 
• When I  can not get to either of these I take a baby wipe shower. Many times I do this before I go to bed. It keeps my bed in a more cared for state. 

Laundry/cleaning

Two loads ( comforter and clothes) 8$ at a laundromat. Sometimes people offer their laundry machine which is one of the best time savers. It also creates a wonderful moment to share someones laundry machine. Further being introduced to how this particular person does this regenerative cleaning process. I clean the front seats more often than I ever did in the past. 

Why

I like to spend time with people and enjoy doing things.

Maintenance of any kind creates problems for me getting things done. Maintenance of room, clothes, kitchen,bathroom, yard,house...

I would prefer to spend my time experiencing just the new situations. (oddly found myself in a bit of a loop right now since I am in the process of building a 25'x25'x'25 structure...with no place to build it. It is making me more resourceful and getting to know more people more in-depth  in the process--THAT is enjoying the process as I see it/Life being the journey). My rent and transportation are the same. It allows me to spoil Pipi - nice tires! synthetic oil! Washing my car takes on a who new meaning to me.
Also I enjoy the fact that this life can be replicated anywhere in the world most likely for less (might have to take the mattress).

Broader concept that I wanted to squeeze in here but just didn't see how - and since i am all over the map -- why not!
It is a belief system for me. We as humans are all one really big family. (certainly the family is bigger when you take in the countless offshoots). To think you love one cousin more than another is mostly situational. We all come and go in each others lives and learning to create a more open communication system to allow for a mobile loving lifestyle is a pretty huge tenant in my life. I have yet been able to talk to anyone about how to go about that process - kinda bumbling through it as I go. Earnestness & Honesty have been my only guides.   I love both men and women. As most will tell you not all women/men turn them on. Learning what the turn on means seems to be a critical unknown. 


This ability to replicate a mobile recharge space is just another aspect of that open communication system I believe the world is working towards.

I do find my life needs somethings.

• I would like a more permanent mobile internet solution. (hopefully it will be here by the time my one year Verizon contract is up) I find myself needing about one full day of dedicated computer time with no distractions and bathroom nearby a week. I can most things via my iPhone. It has been suggested to have a mobile hotspot and have it plugged into Pipi at all times.( possible still the bandwidth limitations seem 5G and I think the more useful amounts are about 10G+ I can drain 5G just listening to Soundcloud as focusing music.)
• I would like to have the balls to ask someone to come watch a movie over at my place. I mean really it is quite cozy I just still have some shame associated with it. Not sure where it is coming from. Since I am learning that those who matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter. True it does not mean they would need to be cuddling with me but it makes it more fun (I think this might actually be helped by the Pipi Warming as noted below - knowing others feel comfortable in my space would go far to alleviate the shame I feel- and I might stop saying to people that I live in the lakewood area ...I think I would prefer to say when they ask where do you live- "My car" and be proud.)

A good old fashioned Pipi Warming!

I have had an idea recently of having a "House Warming party at Pipi". I am guessing it would take place at a park of some kind. I mean she would be parked near by to provide music and a place to sit and be around. not quite sure on the details.
I guess the idea of a house warming party is to announce to those you know this space desires your love for a moment to share in and around. To remind the people that live in it that a regenerative presence can be found here. Fellowship creates this regenerative force.  Really my life has changed so dramatically since realizing the many items I have been carrying around with me from birth till now are not the things that make me happy. I am learning to be aware of my emotions and that my reactions to any situation are all that I can control. Pipi is the largest leap yet in my personal understanding of the difference between my needs and wants.

Needs
Yoga Twice a week - Check
Mostly a fruit diet - Check
6-7 hours sleep - Check

Wants 
To accept what is given and have it be enough.
To make something, to grow something, to cook something.
I see this to begin in full swing as of November of 2012.

Productivity in a year
So I have been living in Pipi for almost 13(...15) months now. WOW ! who knew it could be done AND feel productive. Still on a path to finish the project started two and a half years ago The Ball of Light

• 6 versions (8 versions now!) have been gone through (thanks Blazing Sun, Nekkid Jim)
• Parts have been manufactured 
• Budgets created, People involved 
• Grant sent off (Thanks SUZA! fingers crossed for 14K)
• Working towards Theme camp/art project placement  (thanks Sam, Jim,Doug 
• working version 6 made by Nekkid Jim 
• A progression video of the project that will expand to include as much as can be documented 
• Body painted with Madelyn Greco and Scott Frey in front of Alex & Allison Grey in Atanta to help raise money for CoSM a church as best I see that is based around art and the appreciation of life.
• Improved my own boy painting after returning from Burning Man 2010 through inspiration derived from the photography skills donated by Doug Davis to create The Chakra Series  
• First art gallery showing ever!  On display were the works created by the collaboration between Doug Davis and I at D-Squared Studios

I will not say I feel completely stable (not sure I even know what that looks like) but I will say my only worries in my life are financial- and none of that is real anyway. Thanks to Daniel Dadara for creating yet another exceptionally timely project The Art of Turning Art Into Money (and back into art again) - who will be visiting the playa again this year (fingers crossed)

I really enjoy the concept of Walden 2.0 - A LOT!
Henry David Thoreau wanted to spend more time experiencing life so he 'rout all that was not life'. He wrote Walden while living on a neighbors land, in the town he grew up in. While only 1 1/2 miles from his parents house in Concord,Ma.  I will not equate the things I produce with Thoreau's  writings but I will admit WE are all the same. We just need the room to grow. Time allows for an amazing amount of growth.

I have an idea I would love to see occur
( BAM just won all the money I ever wanted)
I would sponsor people that applied to me to live in a vehicle of their choosing(I am sure there would be limitations on the type of vehicle- mainly cost).  The car is bought for them. They wold also get a mobile internet connection and a bed provided inside the vehicle. They would be obligated to live in it for a year and document their life- blog/Facbook/other. I would love to see this with as many people as possible. I mean what would happen if an entire city's worth of people were sleeping in the places we all park our cars and go about their daily lives comfortably.

By the way it could be a Prius Conversion or other if you like. Though much less inconspicuous. I really like that no one has -much- of a clue I am sleeping in there.

This one sleeps four!

The Ball of Light - Inception and bit of update

The concept of the ball of light originated from a conversation in the summer of 2009 with Rebecca Fetch when I was trying to describe love. After that moment we went off for about ten minutes and both felt the need to express something we had discovered. She began to describe three points of light with something connection them in a triangular fashion. Then I described a triangle with a fourth point. Creating the formation of two triangles with a common side.  We were both shocked to have this inspiration simultaneously. REALLY wild! 

After this moment i went off and for te next few days I started adding more and more points of light. This resulted in creating a curtain or immense never ending flat plane of connected lights. This was neat but not anything understandable for my concept of love. I wanted the points to be able to reference each other and be able to see each other. So I bent the flat pane in my head to where the most number of points were allowed to touch each other. This resulted in a sphere. At the time the best way I had to describe the picture in my head was a geodesic sphere. 

geodesic sphere

Since then I have discovered other polyhedrons that have more more fun names(and more visually stimulating) rhombicosidodecahedron for example. 

rhombicosidodecahedron

After this realization with Rebecca I was given the opportunity express what i wanted out of life by my two lovers at the time (Shoshannah and Rebecca). I took this a perfect opportunity to express my new found understanding of love. Resulting in a quite raw expression of this belief.  I am posting it wil no corrections knowing full well that the emotions going through my head at the time may not have produced a final product.

VERSION 1
Vision
I am a ball of light. I am surrounded by other balls of light. Each Ball of light can move through out the innumerable balls of light. Energy flows in all directions. All Balls of energy are improved by the affects of the Balls of energy that touches them. All Balls of light point toward the Center.

How to build:One ball of light  is a point.(one dimensional l ---or three dimensional)




Two balls of light is a line.(two dimensional)
Three balls of light is a triangle (two dimensional)
Adding the fourth ball creates the first third dimensional possibility (three dimensional)
Continue adding a Ball of light untill all points are connected by the whole structure
This structure in order to be stable will form a sphere - much like a geodesic Sphere
Each point in the sphere has light pointing not only to each ball of light next to them but also a light pointing directly to the center of the sphere
what happens once all points are connected - ( at that point the next stage of existence occurs )
i accept this might be the same process that can be accomplished by one person and if so then the theory still stands just to each aspect of our lives all pointing in the same direction
To be a ball of lightI accept the things I can not change I manifest the courage to change the things I canI allow the wisdom to know the difference
I am always giving What is given by others is more than enough to sustain me
I take only what is given 
I respond rather than react
I have sex with whomever I see pass through my filters
Those around me are always invited to do the things I do I focus on the things I do because they point toward the center of the sphere and those around me should do the same
When my limits have been reached I let others know and or I remove myself from the situation to gather my thoughts and return or not to the situation
I Assume the positive
I Look for the positive
Personal desire - but i think it applies across the sphereI have no need to orgasm. It distracts from the accomplishment of my desires
it is entriely possible that someone else has already worked on this and has solved it maybe that is the Toaists or the Buddist or some other religous focus if so then i would like to learn more about that culture/organization

I am a ball of light I can see my light shine on others the light that shines on others becomes apart of their lightThat light in turn shines on the people they know
I belong to everyone if I belong to one.
I see this as being not only a way to have a relationship with your loved ones but a way to look at life. The difficulty seems to come only when we do not know how to take the next step.  i can only suggest that when you come to a step you are unsure of taking to refer to those that you trust and ask their opinion even after receiving your new found information you need to apply that information to the situation and apply your own decision . mistakes will be made and persistence will pay off. 
there will be times of loneliness there will be time of uneasiness there will be times of separation
The goal is to become independent  from ALL influences and physical desires. not to be driven by hunger of food warmth touch sights sounds smells. If we are not to be driven by physical desires then what should we be driven to do and by what
i love all who i meet in my life. I love what is given to me by those who choose to give it.

AFTER all of that I admit i may be wrong in how i present this. i know i have a vision and i dont know how to reach it. i am willing to work with anyone on how to reach this goal. it is quite possible that this FIRST needs to be worked on by an individual before a second person can learn its direction.
YOGA
BREATHING
MEDITATION
this all sounds so hokey and transcendental tarot type out there thinking . it is by far the most out there thought i have ever had and feel amazed to have found two people that are willing to listen to my thoughts.  i know there is a LARGE part of me that has been craving the touch and caresses and sensual nature of the relationships i have been developing with you both Shoshannah and Rebecca theis past few days. I think if i am true to waht i am desiring this is actually stating that i am willing to remove the physical sexual nature of the relationships in order to determine if any of this is possibe.
I am confused on this VERY point .
SEX
I KNOW that the physical nature of personal relationships with people tends to desire more and more physical contact . i feel this contact is an attempt to feel less alone. I don't think it is possible to to feel less alone with another person. I think the feeling that we all feel when we are with another is their energy effecting our own. i think that when that energy goes away we feel as if something is missing that was once there. like grieving .we are no less alone than when they were there together.

Embracing the personal aloneness that one feels and becoming independent from needing the touch seems to be the key. TOUCH is my scariest of fears to confront. i will someday -i see it. i know i am strong enough but it scares me to be at a distance of others for fear i would not be able to communicate the mental touch to fill the desires of my physical void.
I think i have found myself with two amazingly driven people that attack issues with an amazing amount of analytical skill. i want to be able to provide what it is you need while not taking away from what i want.
i want to be near you both.
i do not need to be near you.
i love you both thank you for allowing time to begin work in this direction
Gregory

This was an superb moment - that has created a direction in my life towards reaching in the direction of what I desire. I see myself capable of loving all that stand before me. Time is the hardest of all  to overcome. The more time you allow yourself around another individual the more chance there is to appreciate that persons traits for what they are. Over time seeing that the way they are is quite beautiful. 

I have no answers. I do feel driven to build The Ball of Light for Burning Man 2012. I know it has/will introduce/ed new people and concepts to me and those that interact/contribute with/to the project. Part of me is in such a hurry to get this done and displayed to allow myself to crawl back into my head of world/universal exploration/understanding. Another part understands this is a personal challenge to work on a project that I truly believe in and work towards whatever result it produces knowing that the end is not the goal but the process is what will share the most. 

The Ball of Light does not have to be the projected 100' tall structure to satisfy my goals. It was just a number picked out of a hat that was so large that it became my moon to shoot for. 

Aim for the moon if you miss you will still be amongst the stars.  

Always aim for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.

Aim for the moon. If you miss, you may hit a star.

I am attempting to scale the structure to a universal sizing mechanism such as the golden ratio.

The Golden Ratio or how the universe grows itself.

Originally I desired The Ball of Light to be a collaborative project. So far the project has been more project management and slow progress then my understanding of collaboration. ZomeTool in Denver has been the greatest forward momentum with the possibility of providing the support structures for the spherical polyhedron. 

The most i am expecting from posting information on this blog is to :

1. Get myself better at documenting my thoughts 
2. Record the process as best as I see it (remembering the process is the goal)
3. Allow others to realize that I have no idea what I am doing and share that the more you focus on an idea the more likelihood it will happen - so chose that idea well but be ready to adapt.

I have quite a bit of this project in my head and hope to get more of it on to paper over the next year or so.